Date: 2008-08-18 05:51 Subject: life is hard Security: Public

What a rough week. I found out I'm pregnant and my Dad passed away all at the same time. Then I went to finding out that I may loose the baby(ies) too. I'll have that confirmed today.
Can you believe I'm leaving for Maui tomorrow and I could care less? The only comfort is I won't have any obligations.
I just can't even sum up everything ive been feeling this last week.
It also hasn't quite sunk in that my Dad is really gone. We still don't know the cause of death and won't for about another week. He wasn't sick, he was only 57, I just don't understand why.
I'm scarred about my test results. How the hell was I supposed to keep low stress through a week of planning my Dads services, crying with each new person who found out, and helong my mom yet to figure out her finances? Too much

Date: 2007-05-10 06:16 Subject: hoopla Security: Public

Today is TMO hoopla at my building. They turn the roof of the garage into 7 basketball courts and have NBA players and coaches come try to help our office asses play 3 on 3 ball. Its a fun day and looks like its going to be great weather for it.

Right now my toes are freezing as I wait in sumner for Tonneka to come pick me up. Now that she's about 5 months along she drives often leaving on a few days a week I have to bus and train my ass to work. I'm loving it.

The weekend is almost here!

Date: 2007-03-15 13:31 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Location: train Mood: tired

I'm on the train bumping and bouncing along. They always looked so heavy and smooth but these things jump all over the place.

Tonight I need to pack for cannon beach and get ready to leave on Friday. I'll come home Sunday to my father and brother in laws and having to entertain. I'm not looking forward to the beach too much either since its to look at wedding crap for Juliette. It will be really fun to hang with Devin but I'm going to avoid the inlaws.

I can't wait for their wedding this summer just cause it will be a vacation for us. I have a romantic little room with kitchen and soaking tub reserved that's only a half block from the beach. I also need to start planning some camping trips for the weekend a few times over the summer and one mid week trip.

I'm almost in the clear to book my new York trip. I can't wait to go see NYC! Amazing food and all the excitement of the city. Its going to be fun.

Time to run for the bus.

Date: 2007-03-01 16:46 Subject: Quick post Security: Public

So I called in fat today. Or maybe it was dirty clothes. Point being I just couldn't face the closet and having to try to find something to wear so I just gave up and worked from home. I got a lot more done anyway so it's not a bad thing. I just wish I would have stayed up to watch Lost.

I'm leaving in a few mins to go meet Jay for dinner. We're going to grab something at the Ram cause I need to get outta the house. I'm taking tomorrow off as a sanity day and I'm going to get my shit together.

My plan is to do laundry, make a whole bunch of shit for the craft fair, splurge at Costco on something I'll "have to have" and then make a yummy dinner (TBD).

I'm hoping a little me time will help me get outta this funk.

Date: 2007-02-27 19:23 Subject: Public Service Annoucement Security: Public

Hello,

I just wanted to announce publically that I like to service the public by making announcements. Usually, they would be considered public announcements.

If any of you have now been 'publically serviced' by my announcement, please announce that to the public. You would be doing a great service to the public by announcing this.

Yours,

Public Service Announcer

Date: 2006-02-15 16:57 Subject: Friends Only Security: Public

I have decided all future posts will be marked Friends Only. I have nothing to hide (nor do I think anyone but people listed as my friends read this)but I have taken to LJ in a personal way and really use this as a tool for personal journaling. When putting my feelings to text I want some assurance it will not be repeated to co-workers or others who have no business knowing my business. If you're a voyer go check out one of the thousands of other sites or add me as a friend so I at least know you're a lurker.

Date: 2006-01-06 20:45 Subject: I get it from my Mom Security: Public

My Mom has this knack for running into people she knows just about anywhere she goes. She proves the degree's of seperation law at an alarming rate. I have been known to have that gift to a certian extent but something that happened today takes the cake.

Yesterday morning I hurt my back doing of all things, putting on my underwear in the morning. Half awake hopping on one foot I had some trouble and stood up knowing something was amiss. I couldn't bend over again and it got realy bad last night. I woke up through the night in pain but unable to move. When I woke up I was really in bad shape and decided the trek required with the train & bus while toting my frame pack as Jay calls it, was not going to happen today. I drove into work and let me tell you I felt like my Grandma trying to get in and out of the Passat. What does all this have to do with a strange connection you ask? I'm getting to it, hang on.

So knowing Friday traffic was going to suck I remembered one of my office mates has a friend on our floor that rides the train too. Any time I mention it people say "Oh have you met Tonneca? She rides the train from Sumner", she was one of the first people I met. So Anyway I email her and ask if she'd like a ride to the train station and she says yes. We were going through the usual work talk and she had worked at TrendWest and I talked about how I know people from there (that's one connection) so then I ask how long she's lived in Sumner. She said they moved there in the summer from Edmonds. Her previous place was a bitch to commute from too because it was Edmonds almost Mukilteo. So I say, oh I grew up in that area, where was the house? She says it was in Picnic Point and I say Wow, so was mine! It was across from the school on 60th. She then says we lived on 60th too. And I ask which house and she tells me the address and we're saying the same one at the same time! She and her husband were the ones that bought the house from my parents! We both just kept saying "I can't believe this!". It's a trip to talk to someone about a house you have both lived in and know very well.

She told me about how the house had been broken into. The solid wood door split in half! I was just shocked to hear about the break in. She also told me about the huge bees nest in the attic above what was my Mom and Dads room. I couldn't wait to call my parents and tell them. This is a really weird thing, I'm not sure what could top this. The funny thing is I will see her all the time and I really like her. This is just such a weird connection.

I'm off to take a muscle relaxer and hopefully ease my pain.

Date: 2005-12-28 19:17 Subject: My first day and Christmas Security: Public

Well I can tell you now updates to this thing are going to become a little on the rare side. I had my first day at the new job and am feeling comfortably overwhemled. I came in, got my badge, signed papers, picked up a laptop and a fancy backpack to carry it in (hint hint, take me home)and a big ole fat stack of project documentation to review. My first impression of a partner on a project dealing with contracts was a little crazy. She came up to me and started going on about how requirements were due yesterday to meet the IT deadline for our target launch (not a figure of speech) and she wants to meet with me for my thoughts. She also wants to know if I have all the doc's printed so I can read through. I told her I was having printing problems and she asks if I have a ticket, I staired at her like "What the Fuck Bitch?" and I hear the boss guy who showed me around yell to her "it's being addressed". She's obviously a bit of a live wire. So I have some big meeting about this project on Friday and I'm still not able to get a straight answer about what my deliverable is. Oh and did I mention they don't have a desk for me? I'm going to be hopping until some dept move sched. for last Oct finally happens.

On a brighter note, the boss guy was really cool. He said I could work from home for the rest of the week (On my first day!) and when he heard about the Fri. meeting he said I could call in,but I want some face to face for the first meeting so he was like "just make sure you're outta here by 12:30". I can tell I'm going to be worked hard but respected and rewarded. What more can I ask for? Who cares if I have to deal with some freaks in the process. They make it fun and give me something to bitch about.

I'm excited to wear my fancy new pack with the clip that goes over my boobs making them look about two cup sizes bigger, it was not designed for a woman I can tell you that much or maybe it was?

Christmas was busy as usual but pretty fun on the whole. I think next year I'm going to skip the Gillville thing, I was so fed up this year. My favorite gift from Santa (aka Jay) was America's Test Kitchen cookbook, I love that thing! He also bought me some great books on dogs & travel, yummy lemon lotion, pretty earings, and a few new kinds of wine to try. He spoiled me as usual. Nothing over the top, just a bunch of little things I wanted.

Date: 2005-12-21 08:31 Subject: And I'm Feelin' Good... Security: Public

Freedom is mine (and you know how I feel)
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life for me
And I'm feelin' good.

That is the song they used in the Six Feet Under "comercials" on HBO of them in the gorcery store. It just keeps running though my head and makes me feel excited. I really love change and my resume proves that point. At least from the stand point of positions. I'm just biding time now until Friday.

Commuting sucks. Last night it took me over 2 1/2 hours to get home from Bell Square. I didn't take the car above 2nd gear the whole way. Today the train was late and I had to take the bus that drops us off by the Humane Society which is a long walk in the rain. We picked up this guy on Mercer Island who couldn't stop staring at me and rocking back and forth, that made me nervous. I wanted to ask him if he cared for some buscuits & mustard with french fired potaters.

Lunch yesterday was really nice, we all had a great time. Pauline bought us cocktails which made it fun and we saw Joan get drunk without sneaking sips at her desk, ha ha ha. She bought us each these fuzzy gloves that are so warm and soft. I just love them and wore them today.

I told Aimee this morning about the dream I had where she was my mentor for my new job. She wouldn't let me get paper and a pen to take notes until Halloween. We also worked on a report of errors everyone in the company had made the week before such as spacing off in a meeting. Too funny.

Here is a photo we took at lunch yesterday...

Date: 2005-12-20 13:16 Subject: Talk about Drama Security: Public

I just heard this chick that I'm sitting next to break up with her BF who lives with her on a VM, who the hell does that? She's going to go to lunch with us today and it's going to take all my will power not to ask her if she has a bf, just kidding I'm not that crule. People are just so freakin funny.

Date: 2005-12-20 12:12 Subject: Babys Mama Drama Security: Public

The thing I'm going to miss the most about this place is all the drama. For the last year in my "new" position I was able to just sit on the sidelines and watch. I swear they could make a show like The Office about this place, there is more dramam than General Hospital around here. Let's see, there was the time the Director of Professional Developement stripped down to her thong (55+ year old woman mind you) in the parking lot with two floors of people looking down on her. All of the catty fights the Processing Team would have. A drunken supervisor wandering around slurring her words asking people for pain killers. Roumors about how small some guys dicks are, yes we talk about it. The list goes on and on.

There was also the employee who told me she had voices in her head telling her to hurt me. That was after I had to tell her to wear a bra (not a pretty sight)I wonder if they were connected.

I was telling Jay the other day that I feel like two different people. I take work so seriously and try to not let people in at work because Im so emotionally tied to people. It made it harder to do the right thing for business when I knew it was going to be a bad thing for someone personally. People here see me as this straight laced borring chick, and yeah I'm borring but I'm leaving with the feeling that they don't really know me. I feel like I have to be so guarded here at work. This is my personal place on LJ and MySpace is full of people that have known me for 8 years but don't really know me, does that make any kind of sense?

I'm just killing time until we go to lunch.

Date: 2005-12-20 07:31 Subject: End of an Era Security: Public

Today as I was driving into Issaquah for my last time I was thinking about how much I have changed and experienced in 8 years. I have worked here longer than I lived in Mukilteo and think about how many memories I have from that time in my life.

Since I walked in those doors 8 years ago I have been married, made and lost friends, been in a serious roll over accident, moved 4 times, bought my first home, lost my Grandfather, traveled, and so much more. People say you find yourself in your 20's and I know I did. The one constant throughout was good ole WWC. I am so sad about leaving but glad I'm going before everyone is layed off. At least I can leave while things are still somewhat how I will have them in my memories.

Pauline is taking me and the Supervisor group for one last lunch at McCormick & Schmitts in lincoln center. It's so nice of her since my current boss won't be doing anything like that. It means a lot to go out one last time with the gang. I brought my camera and am prepared to take lots of pics today.

Date: 2005-12-19 11:33 Subject: Fucking Figures Security: Public

Today (my last Monday here keep in mind) there has been some sort of change to the air vent above my desk. It's the first time cold air hasn't been blowing down on me all damn day. I'm actually hot! Usually I wear more inside than I do out, this is so typical.

Date: 2005-12-19 08:41 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Wow what a weekend, it sure was busy. Friday night Jay and I went out to get dinner and then watched the movie Crash at home. Man, talk about an important film. It really focuses on the racial sterotypes of several different groups. There was one part that had me crying out of control. I haven't seen a movie that moving in a long time.

Saturday night we went up to Alderwood Mall to hear my Dad play Christmas music with his band. He way so excited about it. Wow has the mall changed since I was there last. I ran into Bree and Steve with their little boy Collin. I was thinking about how glad I am to be out of the area so that I don't run into people all the time. I'm just not up for the "Oh so what have you been up to" talk all the time. I seem to have a knack for running into people cause it happens almost every time I go up there. It's fun but at the same time I'd rather just skip it.

We took my parents to The Rock for dinner and had a good time. I had one of their electric teas and god drunk off of one! I can be such a light weight sometimes. When we left Jay told me I was really talkative. I also went off about all the Bush supporters in Puyallup and he elbowed me. I guess I forgot who I was talking to.

When we got home that night we found Tucker has unwrapped and eaten a big box of Toblerone Truffles I bought for Jay. Wrappers were strewn all over his favorite places. In total we found 24 wrappers! I'm really starting to think the whole Dog and Chocolate thing is crock becuase he wasn't even sick. This is about the 3rd or 4th time he's gotten into chocolate in large quanities.

On Sunday we had my Mom's side of the family over for Christmas. Now Ian and the twins square off on the complex game of opening their gifts. Ian's was awesome this year. There was the usual series of puzzles and clues leading up to the gift. The last part was great. He had a hand made jigsaw style puzzle made out of copper. It had a message etched into it with half of a clue and they had to flip the completed puzzle over to read the other half of the message on the back side. It ended up being a gift card sandwiched between the sheets of metal that was the base of the puzzle. It was a shame they had to destroy it because it was so cool. Ian also showed me his latest hemet, the Viking. I'll post some pictures under the cut. Sorry but they are large, no photo editor here at work.

It's a sad day at work, I guess everyone got their walking papers last Friday. Me and my bosses position were the only ones they were keeping out of the entire department, so I made a good choice to leave when I did. My old department also found out that none of them will be staying. I feel the worst for my teammate Shannon who wanted to stay. It has to be a slap in the face to hire for my position but lay her off because she's remote. I really feel for her.

( Weekend Photo's )

Date: 2005-12-15 09:26 Subject: Frosty Mornin' Security: Public

There is a thick layer of frost on everything this morning, it almost looks like it snowed. I am working from home cause I've been feeling kinda crappy so I went out to pick up some breakfast. Just getting out of the house woke me up a little and helped to get the day started. I passed all these sorry suckers scraping ice off their windows. Keep in mind everyone has at least a 2 car garage but does anyone use it for their cars? Hell no! I'm so glad Jay insists on keeping both cars in there, it's wonderful on mornings like this. The temp gauge said it was 28 outside, buurrr!

Last night was fun, we went out to dinner with Cora & Andy at the Ram. It was the first time we've been out with them for dinner since Nathan was born. We used to have dinner out at least once a week so I've missed that. Nathan did really good and let us all eat.

I'm getting ready for my busy weekend. I have a baby shower and my Mom's side of the family coming over to celebrate Christmas all on Sunday. I also have to finish up my Christmas shopping. I'm not looking forward to the baby shower. I feel so bad that I ahve trouble at them, because I really am happy for them it just makes me depressed. It's hard to explain. This one I am especially happy for. It's someone that I work with who has been trying for years and lost two invetro pregnancys before this one. I just know of about 3 other people there who are also pregnant now and I am dreading the hours of baby talk and people asking me if I have kids. Ahhhh I don't want to think about it.

It's that time again where Jay and I are trying. Whoever said married couples don't have sex has never tried to get pregnant. I swear we are having more than when we first started dating in the last year. OK TMI...I know. I'll stop.

Aimee & Jaymz - I need your addresses so I can send you out a card. Please reply (and I won't publish) or email me. If there is anyone else that reads this, you can give me yours and I'll send you one too :0)

Date: 2005-12-14 07:31 Subject: Hooked on the myspace smack Security: Public

OK yesterday I was sitting at my cube all innocent and this guy Drew sends me what appears to me a harmless link. So I go to his page and I see all these people I know in his friends list. Then without thinking, completely forgetting what my mamma told me, I took my first hit and clicked on the pic of someone I knew. It magically took me to their page with a whole new set of people I knew and some I didn't. Then I kept taking hit after hit until I was a certified junkie!

I have to say I like the journaling part of LJ and there really doesn't seem to be much interaction on myspace but the friends linking and search features kick this sites ass. You know it reminds me of this board a chick on that show The L Word made. She starts connecting who's slept with who off of this one person and it becomes this huge complex web. It's so addicting.

I finally heard back from the recruiter last night and everything is a go for me to start on 12/28. I was really worried since she would not return my calls. I kept thinking in the back of my mind I might be fucked since I gave my notice already. I'm such a worrier like that, I cause myself stress for no reason and I don't know why.

Date: 2005-12-13 18:46 Subject: MySpace site Security: Public

Here's my Myspace site

Date: 2005-12-13 13:27 Subject: Being pulled away Security: Public

OK, so I went to My Space (not the MSN one) to see Drew's page and there are a lot more people I know on there,not to mention some pretty slick features. I think I might jump ship to updating that page instead of this one...hummmm

Date: 2005-12-13 08:57 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

( Another Meme Quiz )

Date: 2005-12-13 07:29 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Be kind to me or treat me mean, I'll make the most of it I'm an extrodinary machine.
- Fiona Apple

I love that lyric. I can really relate to a lot of her lyrics but I don't care for the music on the newest album. Especially that song! It brings up an image of her on a stage in costume for some Broadway show. The music is too theatrical for me.

I'm in Issaquah today and sitting at a desk that doubles as computer storage but I have a great view of the park. Not too much going on today. Last night I finished making two journals that I have been commissioned to do and I still have three more to make. One is for a lady to journal messages to her husband, which I think is so sweet. His journal is a deep mossy green with dark brown accents. I stamped a pattern of ferns as the focal point and then added aged metal accents. The second was for a 12 year old girl named Emma. The lady who ordered it told me Emma had a shrine for Mense (sp?) waiting for her period. Man is she going to be disapointed after having it a few times! Anyway she sounded like an old soul to me so I made her an aged looking journal with beautiful reds, greens, and carmel colors. I feel so honored to be the person to create these gifts which will be treasured.

Oh, I hear Susan and her cute Kiwi accent so I should pop over and chat with her. When ever I'm in Issaquah I spend most of the day chatting since I haven't seen people. It's fun but at the same time annoying because it's hard to get anything accomplished.